The last 2 days were absolutely fun fun fun fun and more fun! Enjoyed myself thoroughly. That made up for not being able to make it to bali or even bintan. Was desperate for a break because mid term break came and went SO quickly. Because I had to study for an exam and submit a term paper, the break wasn't such a break AT ALL.
So i decided to make this week MY BREAK WEEK, for the reason 2 classes were cancelled. So... I decided to pon class on wed as well! Haha! Anw, it was ALL GREAT! Started wed by having lunch with dad, then dinner with the Project Y@Y people. It was nice meeting up with them after such a long time, even though i'm kinda sorry i didn't really get to talk much to the girls at dinner. :( After that it was movie 200 pound beauty, which was surprisingly much better than i expected. It was not only TOTALLY hilarious but really touching. I cried so much at the end that my eyes were so swollen.. Then it was clubbing!! ;) As usual, obar for drinks first then to zouk. Wed was exceptionally fun cos apart from the usual group of us, lynn and jas came as well! And obar has a new dj who's EXCELLENT! :) The zouk experience was much better as well cos phuture was closed and andrew chow was spinning at velvet. Velvet is SO much better because it's so much bigger and well ventilated. Phuture is ALWAYS hot, sticky and smoky. Feel like puking EVERYTIME i'm in there! Ended the night with yummy fish beehoon at chinatown. As usual.
Haha! Realised i've used quite a few "as usual"s!! So to break from the "as usual" way of life which seems to be very much common in Singapore, we (Clarice, Qilin, Julia and myself) drove up to JB on Thursday (we usually take the bus) and it was ABSOLUTELY FUN!! Felt entirely like a holiday - MY holiday. And that's including getting lost at first on the way to Pelangi. Was kinda worried that we would get onto the North-South highway and end up in KL or something but it was also kinda fun trying to find our way. In the end we came back with lots and lots and lots of food - Secret Recipe, Dunkin Donuts, Chikadees, Super Rings, Muruku, Kacang and MUCH MORE. Virtually spent ALL my money on food. Dinner there was EXCELLENT as well. Cereal crayfish, kong pao frog, special tofu, chee cheong fun and garlic xiao bai cai! Mouthwatering and yummy yummy yummy!!
Received the best news in a while yesterday as well! DEL IS COMING BACK IN TWO WEEKS!! And Wai Han's gonna be back on Tues! Coooool!! Haven't seen my 2 of my dearest friends in like 2 years?!?!?! Looks like our plans for summer is gonna be SET!! I'm exhilarated! Taiwan here we come!
Oh well, my wish now is to get through the next 6 weeks of hell at school!! End of holiday and back to earth now Goh Shi Hui.
manipulation
manipulative
adj. skillful in influencing or controlling others to your own advantage
I never expected to have someone this manipulative at home. I thought she was just immature. But her actions yesterday disgusted me totally.
It started off at lunch at dad's. Before lunch, she asked "Daddy, have you been to AMK hub. It's a new shopping centre." Daddy, who spends most of his time in China of cos said NO. So she proceeded on to say "oh, daddy, later i bring you there. i wanted to bring you there yesterday but jie jie said you weren't back yet." (i unwittingly disrupted her plan cos i thought daddy would be back one day later than he was..) anw, daddy said "not today, i'm very tired and the car is still in the workshop" and to absolute surprise and disgust she actually said "go.. i'm ONLY FREE TODAY." I didn't know that nowadays parents have to fit into their children's time slot.
During lunch she finally subtly made her move. She said "My phone sucks. I need a new phone." Too bad, brother and I caught it immediately and we both said "NO!". It was left at it.
Then when we were gonna go home, the real action came. She said to daddy in a sickeningly sweet voice "daddy, i dun care.. i'm gonna drag you to amk hub." With that she dragged out of the house. Knowing her real motives i exclaimed "she wants you to buy a phone for her!" Daddy responded by saying "No, i'm not going to buy a phone for you" to her. Then she just laughed it off and said "no lah, not going to buy phone, i just want to bring you there and (spend time with you)" So hesistatingly, daddy being daddy said ok to her.
Who knows, she came back with a new 500 over dollar walkman sony ericsson, presumbly from sony ericsson cos i saw lots of brochures afterwards at dad's place. Daddy took the initiative to talk to me about it. He said "Your mei mei just ka me yi da dao(one big knife)" I just said "YAH! i warned you. How come you still didn't listen?" He said "YAH, i know. When i was in China, she said she missed me. Then i already knew." And if you know her, she never ever contacts my dad when he's overseas. Even when she's back she can't really bothered. It must have been love. Dad knew what she was up to but still conceeded. He even said he would give me 500 in cash - the price of the phone. But it's not about the money! It's about someone's character.
I can't help but be disgusted at her actions. Call yourself a christian who loves God. I always believed that knowing God will change you. Makes you a better person. And i've seen in manifested in the lives of many, myself included few years ago. But i can't see any of that in her. All i can see is a self righteous, manipulative and immature person. People have told me that I should learn to accept her. I have tried. But i can't seem to do it. Esp when things like this happen. Please teach me how to.
As if life is not frustrating enough, I had to get into an accident on sunday morning on the way to church. It was at yio chu kang road. I was turning into the cte towards sle. There were absolutely NO cars on the main road. I saw a black honda jazz on the slip road and it was moving. I guess it's my fault to assume that people would move off when there are no cars on the slip road. BUT NO! THEY DIDN'T. I dunno wth they stopped for. Too much time? So anw, since i thought they would move off i turned to my right to check again for cars on the main road. By the time i turned back it was too late. BHAM! ACCIDENT. Obviously i would be shocked. But the woman in the other car (who is not the driver) immediately stepped out and shouted at me even after i apologised. She kept complaining about a BALUKU on her head and kept saying she wanted to call for witnesses. FOR WHAT? To sue me of cos. She could even take out a camera (NOTE: NOT CAMERA PHONE) to take pictures of the accident. Seriously, it's a minor accident. So because of her i had to go to the freaking police station to make a report. The police officer at the police station didn't even want to accept my report cos he said there was NO NEED!
Anw, I sent the car to comfort and they told me it'd cost 4500 to repair my car. And it's just the exterior of the car that's damaged! Almost fainted. So someone there recommended me a mechanic opp comfort. Went there and they quoted me 2000+. But that's not the main thing. I saw the other party's car there and the mechanic told me that their repairs cost a few thousand. For the f***ing boot?!?!??! Seriously i dunno how they managed to do it. I suspect they did it on purpose. Maybe there was something wrong with their car and they wanted someone to pay for their repairs. I would be damn pissed if they really did that!
I finally found a mechanic who would repair my car for 1000. But after i told my dad 1000 they called me and said 1800. And this 1800 will only include a older version of the bumper and grill. My dad was obviously damn pissed cos they raised the price by so much.
Sigh. Now it's up to me to negotiate this with the mechanic. Hopefully i can use the skills if any that i might have picked up in negotiation for business(which i have an exam for later.. :( )! Haha!! Wish me luck!
I have absolutely no self discipline. I was supposed to start studying for the nego exam since yest. But until now i'm still at the first chapter. Makes me wonder how on earth is it possible for me to finish. Still have a nego analysis paper due next week and tons of projects. Not to mention all the upcoming midterms. Doesn't help matters that i'm absolutely lost in tax planning. Lesson every week just serves to further demoralise.. Tons of readings for AMA that I've to do. I haven't even got past a single reading for week 1. This is absolutely frustrating. Built on the fact that i'm still mulling over not being able to get my exchange to Emory.
My life seems in a mess. Wasn't I supposed to be a high flyer just like the rest of my secondary school friends? What happened along the way i dun understand. Am i not smart enough or is it because i do not have the same amount of tenacity and discipline or is it because i'm plain lazy and only have myself to blame. I really dunno. I just can't wait for this sem to be over. I'm sick and tired of this rat race. I can't wait to get away.. I want some peace. I want to be at peace with myself.
Trying to curb the mj addiction has proven to be extremely hard for me. I've never been addicted to anything in my life. But i realised that mahjong might just be it. Thoughts of it just come to mind regardless of whether i'm awake or asleep. I dunno if it's cos i find the whole dynamics of the game intriguing or am i just a gambler. Haven't played since wed and am feeling the withdrawal symptons alr.
Was invited for a good friday play in church last night. The place reminded me of the good old days in church when everything was so simple. Reminded me of myself in the past. I know i've changed a great deal over the past 2 years. Gone is the God-fearing, fervent person that knew her destiny. In place is the person who just lives from day to day not knowing where to go. Many factors led things to the way it is now. But guess it was a personal choice. I always thought that one day I would always get back there. But i'm not too sure anymore. Oh well.
