exams...
I hate exams! Absolutely hate it! Dun remember ever hating it that much! I wonder if it's because of the subjects i'm doing. Reading and learning is nice.. But trying to cramp that much knowledge into 3 days of exams and to perform during the exam is no joke.. Honestly i wonder how much I will remember.
I hate exams! Totally hate it! It has forced me into becoming a hermit, staying at home with only the occasional phone call, sms, msn or show to entertain myself. Can't do the things I like. Can't go out, can't play mj, can't just hang out, can't just even slack!
I hate exams! Maybe i even abhor it! Late nights trying to cramp knowledge into my head isn't fun at all! I rather spend those waking hours doing something else!
8 days.. I want this to be over..
ARGH.. I posted an entry 5 mins ago! I dunno what's wrong but it wasn't posted and the draft wasn't saved.. ARGH ARGH ARGH..
Anyway.. I was saying..
I'm supposed to be doing my projs and maybe start studying for may exams which are exactly 2 weeks away but I can't seem to.. I'm doing EVERYTHING but work and studying, be it watching tv and shows, blogging, lazing, or just surfing the net. I know i should be hardworking but i can't seem to do it. I guess this is a perfect example of "the mind is willing, but the flesh is weak"! And I guess this must be the reason for my mediocre grades. I have come to accept that hard work and tenacity pays off. I didn't use to believe in it because all my life I could get by doing the minimal and still achieving what I wanted and needed to. Not anymore i guess. There's no space for laziness and procrastination in the university education system. At least for mine. Here it's a perfect situation of "reaping what you sow"! My friends and I were bored and therefore were looking at the list of dean's listers last week. And we were lamenting to what was happening to us.. It seems like people who may not have been so academically strong in the past have now all superceeded us. Blame it on our lack of discipline and tenacity..
Maybe i'm ranting so much because I'm just burnt out. I've only had 1 week breaks since july last year. It has been summer term - term 1 - one week break - internship - one week break - mod term 2 (now) - 1 week break - summer term. I really wonder how i'm gonna get through the next 2 months. Well, the only thing to look forward to is exchange in Masstricht and the tentative long-awaited trip to taiwan!! Exchange will be fun i'm sure, but there are still unknowns that frighten me. How am i gonna get through 4 months on my own without the comfort of my family and friends that i'm so dependent and reliant on?? Was looking at the prices of food at the restaurants in maastricht and i realised that they all start at about 25euros. The only affordable stuff are macs and sandwiches! I really need to start brushing up on my cooking! I think being there will make me appreciate Singapore more - where all kinds of food is easily available and at prices that i can afford! :P
New car! :D
Finally got the new carbon grey mazda 3 yest. After such a long wait of almost close to 3 months.. And GUESS WHAT?! I got a parking ticket this morning.. Within less than 24 hours of getting the car. What did i say?? - the most amazing things happen to me!
Parked at armenian this morning cos it'd be expensive to park in school without preferential parking. The parking attendants usu come in the afternoon at armenian. or at least when it's not raining. Unbelievably, it was raining and they still came to book!!! Thank goodness it's only $6!! Still, why do such unbelievable things always happen to me??? Realised i've been quite "sway" recently though. Got into an accident, then got caught for speeding (no fine though :)) and then now this parking thing. ARGH!
Despite all these, it's still great to have the new car!! Spent quite a lot of time and money on it in the past 2 days fixing up stuff and getting accessories but I guess it's all worth it! And thanks to Cheryl's parents who made all the waiting so much more bearable and guided and helped me through what to do and get or else blur and procrastinator me would still be really blur and probably would not have figured how and what to do till NOW. Much more would not have got everything fixed up and more in ONE day. Thank you thank you and thank you again!! Am really grateful!!
Ok! Off to read a book now! :)
My Love
FutureSex/LoveSound - 2006
Ain't another woman that can take your spot my-
If I wrote you a symphony,
Just to say how much you mean to me (what would you do?)
If I told you you were beautiful
Would you date me on the regular (tell me, would you?)
Well, baby I've been around the world
But I ain't seen myself another girl (like you)
This ring here represents my heart
But there's just one thing I need from you (say “I doâ€)
[Chorus]
Yeah, because
I can see us holding hands
Walking on the beach, our toes in the sand
I can see us on the countryside
Sitting on the grass, laying side by side
You could be my baby, let me make you my lady
Girl, you amaze me
Ain't gotta do nothing crazy
See, all I want you to do is be my love
(So don't give away) My love
(So don't give away) My love
(So don't give away) Ain't another woman that can take your spot, my love
(So don't give away) My love
(So don't give away) My love
(So don't give away) Ain't another woman that can take your spot, my love
Ooooh, girl My love
My love
Now, if I wrote you a love note
And made you smile with every word I wrote (what would you do?)
Would that make you want to change your scene
And wanna be the one on my team (tell me, would you?)
See, what's the point of waiting anymore?
Cause girl I've never been more sure (that baby, it's you)
This ring here represents my heart
And everything that you've been waiting for (just say “I doâ€)
[Chorus]
Yeah, because
I can see us holding hands
Walking on the beach, our toes in the sand
I can see us on the countryside
Sitting on the grass, laying side by side
You could be my baby, let me make you my lady
Girl, you amaze me
Ain't gotta do nothing crazy
See, all I want you to do is be my love
(So don't give away) My love
(So don't give away) My love
(So don't give away) Ain't another woman that can take your spot, my love
(So don't give away) My love
(So don't give away) My love
(So don't give away) Ain't another woman that can take your spot, my love
Ooooh, girl
My love
My love
I LOVE this song cos of the lyrics even though cheryl's mum says it's irritating cos of the "eee eee" background sound. The lyrics are so sweet especially the chorus. One word strikes me: simplicity. It's what they simple bliss isn't it? I can't remember when relationships were simple. Call me pessimistic or cynical but i think it barely exists anymore. Long ago, when we were much younger I used to think that such happiness would be easily grasped but slowly but surely i came to realise that it definitely isn't the case. Even my mum thinks so. On the way home from sending my brother to pasir ris she told me to never be totally dependent on men. That kinda shocked me but i guess there is much truth in it. Seeing many couples supposedly thought to be made for each other break up over the years has contributed much to such cynicism and pessimism. Seeing the quality of guys around makes it all worse...
Still.. I'm happy for all the happy couples who have found their soulmate (or whatever you call it)! It's proof that love still exists! ;)
Shopaholic Me!!
New addiction: Shopping online
I never shopped online because i pre-empted that if i started, I wouldn't be able to stop! And i'm ABSOLUTELY right! Been shopping online since del confirmed that she would be coming back. Because i can then ship my stuff to her and save on international shipping. But the more i shop, the more i spend.. Can't seem to stop now!! I've ordered from wet seal, abercrombie and ae. Gonna try get my mum something from coach for mother's day.. Actually i was browsing online from coach for my mum and now i'm coveting a wristlet from coach. I neeeeeeeddd to stttoooopppp...
Had tax mid term yest.. OMG.. He tested like everything he didn't teach this sem.. I feel SOOOO cheated. So much for studying estate duty, tax on tax, withholding tax, taxation of NRs and group relief. When i looked at the paper i almost fainted. Well, looks like all the studying has gone to naught. Good thing that it's only 10%!!
Sigh.. Looks like my plans for exchange are gonna fall through. Stranded in holland on my own now.. And i doubt i'll have any other good alternatives so late into the application now. And i heard the dutch culture is to keep to themselves unless they know you. Sounds very much like us Asians actually. Worried about making friends and travelling on my own and spending 4 months in a foreign land in cold winter. I'm not so brave after all. I'm still afraid of the loneliness.. After all, it would actually be a good idea to stay and finish up my accounting modules so that I wouldn't have to do modified term again next year and end all the way in June. And if i go for exchange in my last sem i'll be able to travel straight away in Europe. And i'll be able to drive my new car, which is coming on tues for a longer period! Not to mention that campus recruitment usu occurs at the end of the year. So many considerations!
Well well, it has nearly come to the end of the term.. Hell has begun!! Finished all the presentations for the sem but it's the start of the loads of reports and studying to do.. :S I'm really looking forward to this summer. Even though there's corporate finance this summer. But honestly anything but accounting mods for me...
