a new beginning. or not.

Friday, October 10, 2008

life just has too many ups and downs.

i can't understand why it can't just be simple. i do really wish life was always smooth sailing.

Monday, July 21, 2008

broody..

It's amazing how a guileless comment can get me thinking so much. No wonder they say it's scary when i start brooding..

It was a casual conversation about what a godly person someone was even on facebook. And I said "I used to be like that". And the reply was that I shouldn't say that I used to be but rather I should aim to be it. And i fully agree with it actually.

But i'm thinking.. Is it really possible to go back to the way things were? Many ppl want to go back to when things were simpler. But whether it is even possible has remained a mystery to me. How does one go back to the way things were when life experiences have changed they way things are? Perceptions, circumstances and environments change. How is it possible to restore the childlikeness? Maybe the key isn't for things to go back to the way they were. Maybe it's about getting out the vicious circle, recognizing the priorities and starting over again - a new improved version. But no one likes change isn't it. It's easier to remain in comfort zone and living things the way they are. Especially when comfort zone doesn't seem to bad. And that is why I'm wondering how long more I will run away for. By now i'm pretty sure that having the hidden stubborn streak, i dun respond too well to advice. But hanging out with ppl from the past does come as a wake up call and a regulatory factor.

I guess it's really time to stop having so much fun and finally get my life in order. I've said that so many times this year. But the phrase "a new beginning" has been ringing in my head. Which obviously hasn't been acted upon. :S

I need to stop brooding and start moving for now! Hopefully trying to be useful for the next 2 weeks instead of wilding my time away is a good start!

Monday, July 7, 2008

boredom

Boredom is beginning to set in. After 1 week of being PRETTY homely. Like i said, life for me now is like a silent stream. I need some new excitement! :P
Went for commencement photo shoot with my family today. It was quite fun but a tad tiring. Maintaining the smile for 100 shots! GOSH. I can't imagine people who do this for a living.

Went for lunch at sunset way yesterday with Cheryl at this place called Grillout. It's pretty much a hidden treasure to me. Maybe cos I dun know the west too well. But it was hidden among hdb blocks among the numerous bars and restaurants sprouting around the area. The prices were really reasonable too. And drinks looked really cheap. A bottle of wine for 48? Housepours for 7? And the 320gm black angus ribeye came with the entire works - bread, soup, dessert and drinks all for 30. Not to mention that it was quite yummy.

I was stuffed after lunch and pretty satisfied..

Celebrated my birthday with the family last night. Mum wanted to go out but i was feeling too lazy so we just had steamboat at home. And Dad cooked for me; for the 1st time in my life i should think. :D:D:D

It was nothing too spectacular. But as always, it's the thought that count. It was more than enough for me.. :)

Well, there hasn't been anything much blog worthy these days. The coming week should be quite exciting though. Birthday dinners, mambo's 16th anniversary(if we're going that is..), a hotel stay, a huge birthday party, commencement and a movie. Hopefully that would relieve some of my boredom!! :X

Sunday, June 22, 2008

It's as if girls can't club alone in taiwan!

We visited one of the most popular clubs in taipei last night - LUXY and it was absolutely crazy. The guys come and surround and are so persistent! Think Phuture times 2! The guys just dun get it. Even when we say we dun speak chinese. HOW DUMB. How is it that they have the opinion that girls are not entitled to go out and have fun on their own?!?!

Despite it all, it was pretty fun still. And it's been a long time since I had a girls' night out. Almost a year I think since those Obar days. I do kinda miss those times. But I guess we can't turn the clock back and history can't be reversed.

Ok off to take pictures of Xiao Jing Teng now. There's an autograph session just outside our hotel and we have a great view of it from here! ;)

Thursday, June 5, 2008

school's out!!

wooohooooo!! school's out! i'm unofficially no longer a student! it's quite funny. last night when i was filling up some personal particulars i didn't know what to fill up in the occupation part.

funny i dun feel as great as i thought i would. could be attributed to the suddenly sense of loss - lack of goal since there's nothing to be done.

broke the alcohol fast last night. with absolutely too much alcohol - 1+ pint of erdinger, 1 mojito, 3 champagnes and 1 amaretto sour. timbre - attica - wine bar - zouk. last night was quite fun i must say. the band at timbre was bad and we were so begging them to stop. but music at attica was fantastic. free champagne is always good. and the company was great; everyone was so hilarious! by the time i reached wine bar, i was good to go. i tripped and fell just as i was getting out of the cab though. usual klutzy thing i do.. my knee so hurts now.. anw, after 1 drink we went to zouk. but i was feeling so absolutely sleepy by then i just wanted to go home and sleep. which i did at 1+. very unusual of me, miss alchie as they call me? which i'm not.....

looking forward to the upcoming holidays to krabi and tw and hk! looks like a deep hole will be burnt in my pocket by the end of this month! :S

Friday, May 30, 2008

HELP!!

I'm so absolutely restless and tired. Restless cos having to study makes me feel so restricted. Tired because of the dancing in salsa class i just had. Or it just might be the reading of accounting theories which are so absolutely absolutely absolutely BORING. HELP!

Just had our last salsa tonight. I must say that salsa is pretty fun. I used to laugh at ppl who did salsa years back. Now i have to eat my words. OOPPSS! A little sad that there won't be salsa for the next month cos the salsa gang will be too busy in the next month to proceed on to intermediate. But then again, I always feel not at ease at salsa. For those of you who dun already know. Salsa is a dance where there is supposed to be a lot of eye contact and pretty much bodily contact. AND I AM SHY. Yes, I know you dun or can't believe but i am. I spend most of the time at salsa staring at the floor when it's partner time. Or thank goodness I'm short so when I look straight I see someone's neck or chest. HAHAHA.

So can't wait for exams to end. I need my freedom back. I feel really cooped up sitting at the computer everyday at home. Looking forward to the long awaited beach holiday at krabi 1.5 weeks later! Finally finally finally i'm going to the beach. And we're staying at this amazing room overlooking the sea in an amazing resort with individual whirlpools in the room which extend out to the swimming pool which is apparently award winning. ;) End of june will be spent in taiwan and hk. Yes again. Can't help it. I love the bustling atmostphere in hk and not to mention all the yummy foods that I will be able to eat! Yeah baby! :D These thoughts are keeping me going now. But the same thoughts are the ones that are making me so restless as well. EEKS.

Ahh.. Enough of these mindless ramblings. Back to the efficient market hypothesis. HOW EXCITING.

Monday, May 19, 2008

fun packed day..

I should be studying or working on my projects. But can't help feeling already in the holiday mood. Might be because most ppl around me have already graduated. Or cos I'm already so sick and tired of this phase of life. Or it might just because I'm burnt out from a 5 month school term which usually only lasts for 3.5 months!

I spent practically the entire day sleeping today. And I feel as though my body might just give way anytime. I pride myself for being an energizer bunny, have endless energy and packing my days so tight with a million things. But I think even energizer can run out! And now is that time. Or maybe it just comes with age. But it might just be the mass of activities I did yesterday which is resulting in the way i'm feeling now.

Yesterday started off with breakfast at ecp with ely and Q. Then we met up with mich and gang later to cycle and blade. Must say it was quite fun. Even though we stopped so very often! Then later on we went to check out the Zouk flea market. I must say it's pretty cool. Lots of nice stuff at much reduced prices as compared to the flea markets. Pity i was feeling too sticky and tired to shop properly. Not to mention I dun like to shop with crowds and it was so crowded. Maybe another time! Was quite an experience seeing zouk brightly lited though! After shopping we went to toa payoh for CHICKEN RICE! YUMMY! Portions were huge though!

Because today was a public holiday, it was mambo night at Zouk last night. After chicken rice, we rushed home to bathe and came out immediately. Cos we were so afraid it would be like the last public holiday where the queue for Phuture was so crazy! But our fears were unfounded. The whole club was SO empty! Which was great! Plus the music last night was fantastic! PERFECT. The only not so perfect thing was that we were drinking at one of our houses after getting the chop and i got so super high and sleepy on wine. Now i know wine's my poison! That few glasses of wine kept me SO SO SO groggy for 6 hours and I had such a bad headache after. Simply unbelievable! I'm swearing off alcohol for the rest of the month absolutely.

I think that's the reason I'm feeling like my body could just fall apart now - too much alcohol. I need to pursue a much more healthy lifestyle. SERIOUSLY.

I will think of more healthy activities!