a new beginning. or not.

I can't help but think how deceitful the heart is. How it creeps up on you and catches you unaware. Esp just when you think you have everything under control. And how it is so fond of wrestling with your head. I can't understand how it is when even though you're so sure of something with "all you head", your heart still tries to play games with you and throw you off your feet.

I admit to be someone v emotional. Sometimes even too emotional. Thing is I'm usually sure of what I want. And of cos what I dun. And I definitely know what's good for me and what I should do as well. But why is it so hard to do what the mind says? It seems so much easier to slip back into the pattern of what the heart says is the way. Isn't it so weird?

I need all the mental strength and will power I have on this one. Feels like the challenge of conquering mount everest. The struggle to get to the peak seems never-ending. Just when you think you're getting there, you realise there's still a long way to go. By then you're so tired of tolling that you feel like just giving up.

Seems like the battle to stay true to oneself isn't that easy at all. I'm close to yielding again to the seemingly glitz that the world can offer. But I know that it's not a permanant solution. I just hope that this battle within and without will be worthwhile..

posted by just me @ 9:36 PM