a new beginning. or not.

never been so drunk..

I've definitely had my share of crazy nights out and being intoxicated. But i definitely have never been so drunk as I was last night. The usual would just consist of loads of funny shit that I say or msg ppl. But last night.. I couldn't walk without assistance. Thank goodness for the guys that so so nicely came out to help drag us back.

Jo and I were drinking ourselves silly during dinner and then continued at the pub. Weiwen was with us. But surprisingly, she wasn't really gone. But then again we had like twice of what she did. So she was the one who called the 5 guys and cake! Jo was totally flat out on the floor and unconscious. And when they came, she puked on herself, cake and yinghan as well! Melvin and lionel dragged me for a distance.. I am not sure for how long. Before cake, yh and chris came with jo in a cab to get me as well. Unfortunately, the main gate was locked and we had to detour to the side path which is about 5 mins walk, rather drag away from the hostel. Worst thing was that when we came off from the taxi, there were only 2 guys with us. And they definitely couldn't handle the both of us! So they left us lying on the pavement till the others came!!

So that's how I embarrassed myself again! :S I think i really need to stop this shit. Cos i'm NOT like that. Might be the loneliness of being alone in a foreign country or the prospect of not having to be accountable to anyone. BUT I'M NOT LIKE THAT. Swimming in the mud isn't my idea of living life to the fullest. But it's tough. Life's tough.. Seems to get tougher everyday. No one ever said it was gonna be easy. But none said that the going was gonna get this tough either. Thinking back on how things were in my first year at uni, everything just seems much more complicated now. Do people complicate matters or do matters complicate us? Why do things seem so much more complicated the older we get? I wish I was back to my secondary school days where we had so much fun and so little to think of.. But that isn't possible isn't it? And we just have to keep looking forward rather than live in the past!

I just want to be happy..
I just want to embrace life..
I just want to love and care wholeheartedly..
I just want to feel safe and secured..
I just want to find rest..

Is that too much to ask?..

posted by just me @ 9:44 AM